sigh, i'm so disappointed in you. you throw you temper around, especially to him. he is so young and pure, i'm so worried that it will affect him psychology. this will built up a wall in him, it's similar to abuse. one day, you will easily lay your finger on him, my poor boy. i know your heart it already not with her, but at least, please please do something to benefit us, i'm so tired of working. work and work, people ask me why.? and i just say i work for fun, but true fact is you are not providing for us. everything load and burden is on her, nevertherless, your heart is with someone else. i hope i wish i pray that things will start to turn good, situation will improve especially financiallly. i wan him to enjoy staying in house, now is the age where he will turn bad. i will try my best to stay with you my dear, i hope you are understanding enough. sigh, i love you my dearest boy, i never like to hear you being scolded when i'm outside. my heart cracked whenever i heard something bad happen to you by him. i will always try to stay with you.

things are falling apart in my family, and i love my cute young brother. i am not tired.